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Same Old Story

Sunday, September 27th, 2009

I ate breakfast this morning wary of how I feel. My stomach feels fine so maybe it was just the pizza that threw my stomach off yesterday. It might have something to do with working out, drinking all that water, and then being a pig faced piggy when it came to the pizza.

I feel fine this morning. There’s a tinge of sadness there. It’s been 9 days now since I last heard from her. I’m hoping she’ll call today. I tried last night but I’m not sure if it rang because it did a weird disconnect thing, I think that’s on her end but it could be my phone. I’m not worried about it. I dream of her a lot in so many ways. I can’t wait.

I will be sending this letter off Tuesday, I haven’t finished it yet just in case she calls. She should get it by the first of October and I’m sure she’ll love it. I’m also bidding on two cute shirts for her, I know she says she doesn’t want gifts. I’m debating on how to give them to her. I’d like to give them to her in person. I may ship one and take the other with me. She wants this shirt and she’d like it, I know she would. I like both these shirts. We’ll see. I’m looking forward to that.

I haven’t been shopping in a while. I’ve been saving up money and I just haven’t felt up to it. I guess it’s a sort of depression thing but it’s whatever. I may do it this week.

Today is NFL football day. I think I’ll just stay at home and watch the games. I know it’s not the most exciting thing ever but I like watching football. That sucks because I know she would watch with me (I don’t think she’s the biggest fan ever but she definitely likes it. That’s how I am though, so we’re perfect for each other. Just another thing. ;-)) I have to scour the internet for a link to her team since it’s not on the locals. It’d be nice to have DirectTV but that’s way too expensive for me. I’d go to a bar but I don’t feel like it. The Steelers do take on the Bengals and I’m hoping they cream them like normal. I’m worried about Palmer going after Carter, he’s no Polamalu.

Today I’m really feeling very neutral. We’ll see how it goes. The only two times I’ve felt really sad is the past two nights I think when I went to bed. I guess right when I wake up too for the same reason. It’s all so very hard.

On a lazy, fatass note I do plan on working out but there’s a strong possiblity I won’t because of the aforementioned adjectives I’ve picked for myself. ;-) It may be because I’m awwwesome!

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NFL Week 2: Steelers vs Bears

Sunday, September 20th, 2009

I don’t like Cutler. He’s not that good but he thinks he is. Besides, he went to Vandy. This whole ordeal with him crying over spilled milk and being a douche and demanding a trade was the final straw. So to beat the Bears today was a must. It didn’t happen.

Our offense showed up today and it looked pretty good. The Steeler’s offensive line held up and Ben had plenty of time. Our running game was stout with both Parker and Mendenhall behind the ball. Our main problem on offense? Holding on to the ball, mainly by Santonio Holmes. He had several huge potential catches that just didn’t happen. It was raining hard at several points so I understand that. Ben had a few slip ups including the interception… that rain came down on that drive and it’s hard to battle. I don’t fault them. Now… one guy that I thought was a sure thing is Jeff Reed. He’s almost always money. I said it was unheard of when he missed two kicks in preseason. Well, guess who missed two kicks in a row? They were both left, not by too much either. One was around 38 yards and the other 45. Not give mes but for him it should have been. When the game came down to Robbie Gould, I knew it was over. He’s the other kicker in the NFL that is always on if you ask me.

Our defense without Troy Polamalu is atrocious. Okay, okay maybe not that bad but close. We’re playing zone and Cutler tore us up underneath. Polamalu has the unique talent of reading the opponent’s offense like it’s nobodies business and he fills those gaps. That’s why he’s so instrumental in the defense and such a huge playmaker. Tyrone Carter is okay but he always came in after the ball got there. There were gaping holes and piss poor tackling throughout. One of my favorite parts of watching the Steelers is not their offense but the way they conduct a beautiful defense. I was not impressed tonight.

The touchdown to Spaeth was beautiful. Ben’s own run and jump touchdown was great. Who would have thought a big guy like him can move like that? Well, we knew that already but it seems like a surprise every time! Logan is impressing me as a kick returner so far. Going for a touchdown on 4th and 2 was great, I’m glad Tomlin recognized the strength of the drive and played it. I saw 2 times where the Bears had that going and Lovie Smith backs down. I breathed sighs of relief on those.

The only things that bugged me really bad was Reed missing those kicks and Logan fumbling at the end to lose the game. True it was probably over but if he wants that spot, he needs to take care of the ball as well as get yardage. I also wish Holmes and Ben had better ball control when the rain came on as that was some major yardage wasted.

The final score? 17-14. I can’t wait until Polamalu gets back!

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Just Like A Curse?

Friday, September 11th, 2009

Where to start. Hell, let’s go with last night. Yesterday, I was worried about Ms. Sexy X all day. By afternoon she at least turned her phone back on. That’s a relief but I’m still down. Whatever. I’m looking forward to getting off work and going over to BDubs to watch the game. (That’d be Buffalo Wild Wings, y’all! Also called BW3) I didn’t want no watered down pissy beer but a real man’s beer so I got the nectar of the gods… GUINNESS! Oh, I knew a tall glass of import was going to hurt the ol’ pocketbook but I went there for the atmosphere. A lot of us Steelers fans gather there on gameday. I couldn’t find a spot to sit so I sat with a black dude who was rambling on about all sorts of stuff. He was nice but he was a bit touched. I’m sure he was a little tipsy but I think there was a bit something more than that. However, he was nice and he was talking about some football and about his army life and living in Pittsburgh and some other stuff. I wasn’t really paying any attention because I was there to watch a game. I had 2 Guinness and I wish I had more but that cost me THIRTEEN bucks right there. I got wings too and that put me over $20!!! FUCK. I’m trying to save money so that’ll be my splurge for a while. The wings were actually fairly hot which is weird because I am usually NOT impressed. I think I was having an off day because I don’t normally find them spicy.

The Georgia Tech/Clemson game looked good. GT ran a train with the deadly triple option but then choked and Clemson came back. GT barely pulled that shit out for the win by a field goal. I wish I saw the game but NFL takes precedence for me.

The question that’s floating around is if Troy Polamalu’s injury is half of the “Madden Curse” since he and Larry Fitzgerald were on the cover of this year’s game. I think it’s silly because this is football and everyone gets injured. To top it off, the human missle gets that nickname from me because he plays no holds barred smash mouth football. He gets in on blitzes, run defense, and drops back into zone and breaks up all sorts of plays with hard hits. He’s bound to get shaken up. It sucks that he got hurt on a simple grab for a ball but that’s how it goes sometimes. He should be good in a few weeks I think.

I left the place at halftime and came home to watch the rest. I honestly don’t remember how I spent the rest of the night after the game. I talked with someone for a while, cleaned up for bed, and I guess I just watched SportsCenter as well as typed up some emails and drafts for here. I was feeling slightly better but I’m still sad.

This morning I was so-so. By lunchtime it was hitting hard. I won’t butter it up, it’s depression. I’m trying not to feel it, right now I’m in a bummy mood and I shouldn’t be. I just feel so empty, I don’t feel like eating and I just feel so… empty. :-( I haven’t talked with her in 11 days now. I have heard from her in other ways as recently as 4-5 days ago via a text. But that’s hard to get nothing but silence. It ain’t her fault, nosiree. I just feel sad and there isn’t much I can do about it. I’m trying to buck up. I will. Tomorrow is a new day. Maybe she’ll call, maybe she’ll say the word. If nothing else, I’ll go watch the OSU/USC game with a friend. Blah.

Tonight… I have no idea. I’m going to try to call her. I don’t expect to get an answer unfortunately. But at least I can try. My friends mentioned drinking but I don’t feel like it, especially when depressed as it makes it worse for me.

I know, I know… three fucking posts in one day? These posts help alleviate the feeling, this is a therapy for me.

Blah, blah, blah, blah, bllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. That’s how I feel. I’m just awwwesome I think. Fuck it, fuck y’all, fuck everything. Mmm, that made me feel a little bit better. Ha.

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Steel All Nations!!

Friday, September 11th, 2009

Can you guess who won the first season game? What a game, Steelers versus the Titans… whoever planned that game out was sick! There were plenty of mistakes on both sides of the ball which made it painful. My corner Ike Taylor had at least 3 critical mistakes, costing us a touchdown and a field goal. Polamalu had a beautiful pick but Big Ben threw it to a corner the very next play. Damn. Farrior had a big stop and then blocked a field goal which was great except Polamalu went for the ball and Crumpler landed on his knee funky and he limped out of the game. That’s always a devastating loss. Hopefully it wasn’t major but it appears to be an MCL sprain with 3-6 weeks loss. FUCK! He’s my favorite player on the team… a fucking human missle as I call him.

Anyways, the Steelers were making a nice drive to end the game when Hines Ward got a little greedy and while he was wide open and had a great reception and run after, he tried to bust through a tackle for another few yards and the touchdown. What he failed to realize is that he needed to kill the clock by going down. So he made a basic mistake because it cost him even more… he fumbled and they recovered. Granted we did a three and out but they had enough playclock time to run out the regular clock and take it to overtime.

In OT, the Steelers ended up getting the ball first and that’s all she wrote. The Titans gave up the blitzing long ago and stuck with zone defense which failed bad. Ben picked them apart with Ward, Holmes, and the rookie Wallace for the biggest catch. Instead of fooling around, they brought Jeff Reed out to seal the deal and get the win.

Overall, I loved the game. Hey, it’s my Steelers, they won, it’s the start of football, and it’s NFL. What’s not to love? I was cringing a bit at bad plays but they’re working kinks out on one of the best teams in the NFL. I enjoyed it.

Here’s the awesome one handed pick from tonight.

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What’s New, Pussycat?

Thursday, September 10th, 2009

I have that stupid feeling again. Yes, I’m worried. Yes, the cloak of depression is being kind enough to make its presence known. UGH. Ms. Sexy X’s phone has been going straight to voicemail again for the past 2 days at least. I have absolutely no idea what that means. It could be several possibilities. Just like last time, I’m super worried. She sent a text last time but then I had also emailed her mom so… I have no idea. I just don’t fucking know.

Tonight is a big night for me. Well, it’s supposed to be anyways. With my mood being down, who knows? At 8:30PM EST the Tennessee Titans travel to Heinz Field to take on the Super Bowl Champions – the Pittsburgh Steelers!! Yeah, we lost to them in the 16th game last year but I still say that game didn’t matter. True, it was for home field advantage but in the end they got beat so it didn’t matter and I think it was more important for the Steelers to keep their guys healthy.

My sleep last night sucked. I woke up every two hours almost on the dot. Why? I don’t know. That means I did have a dream at least one I can remember. I jumped in a river to grab a drowning dog and I came out with a bunch of leeches on me. Then I had to pick the bastards off and it hurt. That was the extent of the dream. What the fuck?

Each time I woke up I checked my phone on the off chance that she left a message. Of course none ever came. I don’t know. There’s my least favorite three words. No se. No fucking se.

I went to Old Chicago last night for the kick off of the Oktoberfest mini tour. They had brauts, some sort of meatball thing, chocolate cake with coconut on top (which I scraped off,) and potato salad. The food was decent… hey it was free. I drank a Spaten and Sam Adams Oktoberfest beers. I then had a Beck’s which wasn’t too good. The last beer I don’t even know the name, it wasn’t even pronounced close to how it was spelled. It was alright. I stayed for an hour and a half. I went alone which sucks but my friend backed out. I did talk with some old guy for quite a while, he was telling me about Europe and how he was stationed in Germany for 3 years in the Army. It was pretty neat. But I had a feeling creeping inside so I left. I came home and watched a movie and then broke down and cried in a few spats for just a few minutes. I try so hard not to but it just catches up with me. Blah, fuck it all. I don’t even like typing that out because then I can’t deny that it happened. Sigh…

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Let Me Be Blount

Friday, September 4th, 2009

Where to start today? Oh, I’ll get to the sports news in a minute.

Yesterday I was feeling really worried. I called, texted, and emailed Ms. Sexy X. I got nothing. I had to go to work at noon. Sigh. I was texting a friend when I went in and at 1201 I’m wondering why he just blew up my phone with 3 text messages in a row. As I opened it I realized only one was from him and the other two were from Ms. Sexy X. FINALLY! The message was a double but it was an important update. I’m not sure why she didn’t update me a lot sooner but it made sense. I don’t know. I was still feeling down. She surprised me by sending a picture later in the day and that made me super excited. She knows how to make me happy. :-)

After work I went to my friends house where we grilled some hotdogs and had chili cheese fries. I got the Nathan’s brand on MSX’s suggestion and they were very good. They were juicy and tasty and on sale but normally expensive. I think it’s very similar to the Angus Ballparks except the latter tends to have a tad bit of a spice or taste to it… I can’t explain that but can taste it. I was stuffed. We watched the Boise State vs Oregon game. That game was PAINFUL to watch. BSU was just ramrodding Oregon but they couldn’t finish. They missed two field goals so after their first score they opted to run a two point conversion which worked wonderfully. There were a lot of fumbles in this game and a pick or two. Boise State would find a way to put Oregon in a great position instead of sealing the deal. Oregon, however, managed to find a way to fuck up every single time. They just kept shooting themselves in the foot. They didn’t even get a fucking first down until 3 minutes left in the 3rd quarter. What about their star running back LeGarrette Blount? He was sitting at negative yardage on about 8 carries. Does that name sound familiar? It might. He’s the one that promised an “ass whoopin” earlier in the week. He’s also the one that’s all over SportsCenter now. Not for his play… no he had a horrible negative 5 yards on carries for the game. It was his attitude afterwards where a Bronco linebacker (Byron Hout) gave Blount a sarcastic (taunting) pat on the back. Blount turned around and cold cocked him in the jaw dropping Hout out. What the hell? Then he was getting into fights with his teammates who were trying to calm him down. As he walked by the stands, the BSU fans jeered him and he turned around and almost went into the stands. He had to be pulled back and escorted by staff and cops. I swear he pushed a cop too. What class. His apology afterwords rang hollow. I hope he’s suspended the rest of the year.

There were some good plays in the NFL. Michael Vick can return by the 3rd week. He ran in a touchdown against the Jets. He also threw a pick. The Pittsburg Steelers’ new run specialist Stefan Logan ran one to the house yesterday. He’s already proving his value. I think he has potential for – dare I say - FOUR TD returns this season and major yardage on top of that. He’s small and fast and with our special teams making holes… it’s over!

I’m sure other things happened yesterday. There were two impressive one handed picks on the college level that you can find on SC’s top ten list. College ball officially kicked off with that game last night. Saturday is looking solid with a line up of Ohio State & Navy (really? Will the triple option and cuts hurt OSU?) then the Georgia & Oklahoma State plays. After THAT, you can watch Brigham Young & Oklahoma and there’s even one more game – Alabama & Virginia Tech! The highlight reel will be smoking that night, I bet.

I’m trying to keep a positive outlook on things here. I don’t have a college team but I do love watching a good game. The weather is fine, not too hot nor too cold. I have a persistent cough that’s annoying the fuck outta me. Luckily, it seems I’ve stopped coughing up phlegm. Blah. I’m still a bit worried and I’m definitely lonely and I miss her so much. This is hard on me. What to do, what to do?

Here’s a GREAT sign that made me laugh during the Oregon/BSU game. It’s extremely appropriate given how badly the Ducks sucked it up.

duck roast

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What’s Going On?

Saturday, August 22nd, 2009

I’m glad I got everything all cleaned up yesterday. I felt good about it and still do.

Last night, Ms. Sexy X was supposed to call but didn’t. I think I mentioned that in a post way early this morning. Today I’ve been wondering what’s going on with her. I have a vague idea but I don’t like being in the dark. I hope she calls tomorrow or Monday. It’s been far too long since I’ve talked with her.

I don’t think much happened in the news. I know Northpoint prison had a riot and most of it burned down, inbetween Danville and Burgin. I grew up near there back in the day and drove by it almost every day. Years and years ago. Here’s a funny and awesome story from there. Everyone and their mums have guns down there. Gotta love the south. :-)

http://www.amnews.com/stories/2009/08/22/boy.991862.sto

“I know this sounds redneck, but it was the first time I ever held two guns in my hands at the same time.” – Lynn Montgomery

AWESOME! Haha! She’d be better off with a long gun or a light and a handgun. I give her a ‘T’ for “Tacticool!”

My Steelers are behind right now in the second preseason game against the Redskins. They just picked off a pass with 4 minutes to go. No big deal but it’d be nice to see them win. Reilly is in, 4th string rookie QB. I rather like him but Batch is a great backup and Dixon is good. Dixon went out with a shoulder injury though. I liked Byron Leftwich but I guess he was cut. It looks as if the Steelers lose but it was a good effort nonetheless.

My day at work went by went by rather fast, thankfully. I’m feeling a little depression seeping in but I’m pretty good right now. I just hate being in the dark and I miss those updates terribly. I wish I kept my stupid mouth shut because I essentially cut myself off by saying something stupid that wasn’t even worth it. Why oh why. I’m an idiot. Meh, it happened and I have to live with it. I’m pretty sure her mom is okay with me but I looked the proverbial gift horse in the mouth and got bit. GG.

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It’s Been Awhile

Friday, August 21st, 2009

Nine days to be exact assuming she doesn’t call by midnight tonight. :-( I’m not depressed but that always sucks, ya know? It’s actually a very beautiful day. It’s going to get a little hot and muggy but the sun is fading in and out in an otherwise clear, blue sky making for a very enjoyable afternoon. I have the day off and I plan to do exactly that – enjoy it. It reminds me of her and that makes me smile and joyful. I pity myself because I can’t see her (for now) and I’ll pity those that will never get a chance to lay their eyes on her magnificence.

Yesterday was an interesting day. I went swimming for the first time in years. It was only for 40 minutes. I was alone and watched storm clouds roll over with the sun puncturing them at intervals making for a terrifyingly serene scene. It rained a tiny bit but there was no hard rain nor lightning. It was perfect really. It was warm and gusty as well. They blew over and left a bright blue sky. The scenary made for really good thinking which is what I spent my time doing. Sigh.

Then I went to work, it was terribly boring and dead. I mainly talked the night away. It’s all whatever. I don’t really care, I hate it there.

Some tidbits of sports news here and there’s plenty from yesterday.

Plaxico Burress pleaded guilty to the weapons charges and received 2 years in prison. I can’t tell you what bullshit that is. As a New York citizen he should know the laws, especially the draconian & repressive gun laws. To top it off, they definitely made an example of him because he is a celebrity. It’s pitiful but look at the cesspool of politicians from that state, including Rudy. Pure garbage. I mean 2 years for having a gun? You would think he held up a fucking bank or something.

Usain Bolt breaks another world record this time in the 200m dash. Essentially par for the course if you go by his record breaking 100m time of 9.58s. Simply amazing. So double that and and .03s and you get his 200m time of 19.19s. Wow.

Big Ben injured his leg in practice. He’s just fresh coming off the bogus rape charges (his attorney released emails from the “victim” in which she was asking to go to some swag party with Ben 3 days after the supposed “rape.” Is this woman retarded? The only victim here is Ben.) His ankle or foot got caught on Starks but there’s no word if it’s serious and how it may affect him. If he only sits out the preseason, I don’t really care.

Chad Johnson played surrogate kicker for the Bengals against the Patriots. Their normal kicker is out with an injury and always the one looking for the spotlight even when his team sucks and he’s mediocre, guess who steps up? I don’t have the heart to call this guy by his ”legal” name. I thought it was a cute nickname back when it started but now he’s just attention whoring. It’s one thing to be cocky when good but to continue when you’re not? I’ll give him an ‘A’ forAttitude in keeping up his spirits. Give him a healthy quarterback again and who knows, maybe he will play like he once did. I’m not saying he’s bad. Anyways, he did pretty good as a kicker I thought. It was dead center and powerful on the extra point. I wonder what range he has (disgregarding his claim of “52-60.”) His kickoff was decent as well. He could have pushed another 9 yards but it wasn’t bad. Maybe he’d be better off there. ;-)

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IT’S FOOTBALL TIME!!

Thursday, August 13th, 2009

Ah, football season is here.

And none other than my favorite team and SIX TIME SUPERBOWL CHAMPIONS the Pittsburgh Steelers are playing the first game of the season tonight!!

True, it’s only preseason but it’s a Superbowl rematch. The poor Cardinals are going to get a repeat defeat handed to them.

I’m not sure where Fast Willie Parker is. Time to watch my boy Troy Polamalu become a human missle!!

****UPDATE****

Well, I know it’s just a preseason game but the Steelers win 20-10. :-)

Michael Vick also signs a 2 year contract with the Philadelphia Eagles. Crazy, huh? So what’s going to happen with the highly overrated McNabb? Hopefully he gets benched. I’m thinking Vick goes QB/WR. Now I don’t necessarily agree with bringing Vick back at all, mind you.