I had a sleepless night. I kept waking up hot and that meant dreams. I don’t recall the dreams either. I remember her face in at least one of the dreams. I don’t know why I was so hot or had such a restless night.
I can’t get over this feeling. I miss the fun times, I miss the laughs, I miss the aimless chats. I miss daydreaming all day, every day about her. I still find myself drifting off at times… I’m trying not to. I think the reason is that I still compare her to others and think of just how lucky I was. She had it all, all the things I could want in a woman. Beauty in so many ways, intelligent and sharp as a needle. A perfect combination of shyness and wittiness… just what I want. See what I did here? I’m doing it again. Ugh. I think it’s a matter of me kicking myself for losing her. :-( Why can’t I let me be? I’m neither happy nor sad right now. I just am. I’ll have a short streak of happiness and sadness but then I return to neutral. I would rather be sad as this is miserable.
I did watch some football yesterday. The Vikings absolutely tore the Cowboys a new one like I said they would. Sidney Rice was on fire. I guess Favre was too. The Jets upset the Chargers. I couldn’t believe it. I know the Jets have the number one defense but damn! Rivers and crew started off really well and then just fizzled out. The defense was holding well enough but the offense didn’t produce and Nate Kaeding missed THREE kicks in a row… that ain’t good. One of them was long, the other two not so much. Darrelle Revis once again shut down whoever he was on (he rotated.) I’d put him at Best Defensive player though I’m not upset that Charles Woodson got it. I’m now going with the Vikings to take the Super Bowl against the Colts. We shall see.
I have to get to work now. I don’t want to go. I’m sore as fuck too. Life sucks.
