What a rollercoaster of a day. I started off by waking up throughout the night. I took a Percocet sometime and managed to get some more sleep. Then I had to get to my doctor’s office but not before taking a careful bath and cleaning up. Something ripe was hitting my nose and I didn’t understand, the wrap on my arm didn’t really smell at all. I finally figured out it was my shirt I wore yesterday and the night before. I guess my body sweated those chemicals out because it wasn’t pleasant. So I threw those clothes into the wash and then washed my sheets right after. Yuck.
Some nasty ass snow storm is blowing all across the US and of course we get dumped on. I fucking hate the cold and I hate the snow. Fuck this shit. I get to the appointment where I get to wait around for 50 minutes when I am literally the ONLY patient in the fucking waiting room. What the hell? I couldn’t believe no one was there, usually it is pretty packed. They cut the dressing off and we talk and go over the stuff, pretty normal. I get a scrip for physical therapy which I go over and do. Now with this storm blowing in I guess most of the PT staff decided to vacate. Whatever. I had to fill out a long ass sheet with one arm and wait some more. Finally a therapist saw me and we took a good hour. She had some students she was teaching so I didn’t mind since I was bored. Granted, I wanted to get home and take some meds and eat but it could wait. Most of this stuff was review for me since I did this two years ago but I thought it was fun having the kids watch and learn.
The drive home wasn’t so pleasant. The roads were shit and the drivers were worse. I just took it slow, I ain’t in no rush and I have one arm. Fuck getting into a wreck. I had to turn off my radio, my thoughts were wandering. They still are. I took a pain pill and now I’m euphoric. I’m about to give my exercises another go. I can’t stop thinking and I don’t know if it’s a side effect or just me but I’m sad. I can’t shake this feeling. I so desperately want to talk to her but I can’t.
Here’s what’s bothering me as well: some idiot goes nuts and shoots up a place in St. Louis. Do us all a favor and throw yourself off a goddamned cliff instead of taking others with you, you selfish piece of shit. Another thing: fuck this extra security at airports. If a terrorist gets through and blows shit up oh well. It’s bound to happen again no matter what precautions we take. You’re letting the terrorists win with all this extra shit. If my plane got hijacked I’m going after the goatfucker. If he blows us up well I guess that was my time to die. No need to make everyone suffer. This nanny state is getting too large. The past few days have had airports shutdown due to someone walking in the wrong way or a suspicious fucking ornament… are you serious? Good game, we now have a piece of plastic shutting down an entire airport. Way to show them terrorists! I’d touch on healthcare but I’m damned tired of typing and thinking.
I’m going to go sulk.
