I don’t remember when I posted last. Nothing new has really happened. I found my mistake and apologized though I don’t know if she forgave me for it. I’ve been feeling like shit day in and day out.
I think she’ll give me a second chance eventually and I feel she still loves me… just hurt. So all I can do is wait. I wish I’d keep my mouth shut. I’m a moron. :-(
I plan on doing nothing all day. I was going to try to workout or clean but I just don’t feel like it. That may change later but I’m depressed. It’d be much worse but thankfully she called and I got to talk with her earlier.
I can’t wait to get going. I’m holding off for a month and then I’ll get it in motion. I still don’t know what I’m doing day to day but I have a very rough estimate of where I want to be going and I know what I want my final goal to be. Getting started is always the hardest part. I don’t have any qualms about it though.
