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Old Chicago: World Beer Tour

Wednesday, September 30th, 2009

What is the World Beer Tour aka WBT? It’s sort of a game at a pizza chain known as Old Chicago. For a chain pizza the price isn’t bad and the pizza is excellent. I’m sure there’s better pizza out there, I’ve certainly had better but for a chain this is wonderful. That atmosphere is good and they have a lot of beer, at least 110. The tour comprises of one successful completion of drinking all 110 beers offered at any of the restaurants. They’re given unique numbers because while all locations have the big 3 domestics there are a ton of local brews specifically offered at certain locales. I’m not sure how many different beers they offer throughout the company but given the numbering it could be as much as 1,500!! To make life a little easier and to make the tour a little more fun they offer mini-tours which are somewhere between 6-10 beers selected for a given festival like 4th of July, St. Patrick’s Day, or Oktoberfest. These beers are given different numbers in the 9,000 range in order to distinguish from the main tour because you get a prize at the end of the mini-tours (in the form of a shirt for that event.) They also count on your main tour so if you want to have the same beer again, that’s your chance to have two for your main tour. There are different milestones along the way to completing your tour, at the end you get a shirt, name on the Wall of Foam, and probably something else. You can complete the tour as many times as you want. Once you complete it 10 times (a whopping 1,100 beers and at least $5,000 later) you get a nice pewter mug which allows you to get any pint and a half beer for the price of 10 oz. That’s certainly nice but expensive. I’m at 70 beers, I had more but somehow lost a good dozen mysteriously. Once I complete it I’m done, if I even complete it. That’s a lot of money that I don’t have. :-(

The only downside to this tour is having to drink wheat beers which I can’t stand especially hefeweizen crap. Yuck.

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Sons of Anarchy S02E04: Eureka

Wednesday, September 30th, 2009

This episode starts off with a laugh, the boys are teasing the prospect about his lack of a nut since one was blown off in Iraq. He informs them that he’s getting a prosthetic ball called a “neuticle” or some shit.

Gemma puts a face to one of the rapists and is about to go off. Unser being the clueless dunce that he is goes in and threatens Zobelle. Gemma has an opportunity and a Glock to kill one of the whities. She chickens out as he is talking to his son on the phone.

Bobby takes his fatboy motorcycle that backfires so loud and blows so much smoke that Tig crashes his bike along with another biker. They take him to a Kaiser hospital where they tell him he’s got to go to another hospital for insurance purposes. This little chinese girl calls a bounty hunter she knows and I guess Tig has a warrant out because they came in a van and took him. Okay, what person would do that? How quick are these guys to kidnap him that quick? I must say the rescue was pretty sweet. So Clay and Jax explode for a moment and then a few of the guys get on the flatbed and bust down the wall and take them by surprise. The looks on the bounty hunters’ faces was priceless. I don’t think they cared at that point about losing Tig.

This whole episode works up to Opie siding with Clay (can you say “irony?”) with it coming to a head in a chat between Prez and Veep. Jax mentions he doesn’t know how to deal with Clay’s part in ordering a hit on Opie and killing Donna and Clay tells him he better get used to it and if he mentions it one more time, he’ll kill Jax. Wow, where does it escalate from here?

One last thing, maybe because I’m a dork, I love the previews for that new show “The League.” I’ve done fantasy football quite a few times though I’m not in a league this year. I don’t like how people get all in it and don’t give a shit about the game. I much rather watch the game and I think the fantasy football leagues compliment them. But I can see the humor in making fun of those fair weather nerds. :-D

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Wavering Emotions, YIKES!

Tuesday, September 29th, 2009

Funny how quick a few hours and some sleep makes. What difference am I speaking of? I feel like shit today. Okay so the morning starts off slow, whatever. I go to work, do my stuff, get off of work, and then make a few calls. I call Ms. Sexy X and it’s doing this thing yet again where it will ring a few times and then just disconnect, no voicemail… nada. That instantly gets me worried. This has been going on for a few days. I wasn’t sure if she did something on her end or if it’s a connection problem or what. I’ll admit I called one day and it did that so I called again because I was thinking “what the hell” and it rang a few times and went to voicemail… which tends to indicate the phone. I mean all the other times she’s in bad connection it goes straight to voicemail. So why does it ring and disconnect? Is she answering?? It’s not an answer and hang up deal, it just stops. So I’m wondering if she hits answer and it just disconnects us both. I don’t think so because that would mean she’s answered it a bunch lately and I just don’t see that happening. :-(

To top it off it’s been 11 days of no communication. I hate that. Blah.

So what will tomorrow bring? As for tonight, I’m going to go soak in the tub I just cleaned, I cleaned my bathroom all up trying to get my mind off of shit. I was going to mow and try to get a tan but it is overcast and fucking cold and windy out. What the hell. Hopefully I can do that tomorrow. In an hour the new NCIS comes on. After that is that crappy NCIS:LA. Stupid spinoffs. They got the shittiest characters to try to be all special or something. The white dude is annoying, LL Cool J (c’mon get a real fucking name you asshat. You can’t act,) and that really annoying little old lady. I don’t even know what her point is in the show. I can’t watch that garbage. Oh and a guy that just goes around and analyzes people… how trite. Can you tell I don’t like the show? At 10PM a new Sons of Anarchy comes on. I can’t wait. I hope to forget myself tonight and maybe my morning will be better tomorrow. It’s always my lowest point if I have one. Just 31 more days.

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Feelin’ Okay

Tuesday, September 29th, 2009

I saw a most beautiful sunset today. It almost made a tear come to my eye. If I wasn’t on a limited access highway where the chance of getting creamed is high, I would have pulled over and taken a picture. The sun was about 15 degrees off the horizon, the rays splayed out like a halo. There were a few sparse clouds in perfect little cloud shapes scattered around it. It’s one of those moments that makes you go “Wow.” I felt a calming sense rush over me. Everything will be alright, things will work out.

I took a hot shower tonight and felt the same way. That’s good considering I normally get sad in the shower because of me thinking about being alone. I feel a calm sensation. I still have worries and sadness lingering somewhere but for now I’m just… neutral.

I sent my letter today which is also a boost. I hope she likes it. I now have ideas on a third and fourth letter. :-)

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NFL Week 3: Steelers vs Bengals

Monday, September 28th, 2009

I don’t know where to start on this game. I was satisfied to see our offense step up with a running game. It’s been a while since Fast Willie Parker has done anything after being hampered with the leg injury for the past 2 years. He stepped up this game and averaged 4 yards per carry easy.

The Steelers drove it all the way down to around the 5 yard line and couldn’t convert to a touchdown. This is where Ben should throw a fade to Holmes but no such luck. They had to settle for a field goal. A little later on, Big Ben was being hurried and managed a checkdown to Parker who ran it in for a touchdown. That’s the kind of plays we need. The defense held up okay, allowing just one field goal. Unfortunately, on yet another drive down field we settle for a field goal but Jeff Reed misses it. I have no idea what’s going on with him, he’s shaken up I guess. I’d normally bet a hundred spot on him but his performance this year is shaky which is horrible news for a team that loves their field goals. This might force Ben to start going for it which could be a good thing. I’m not sure yet. At the end of the half Big Ben throws a short pass to Santonio Holmes who was supposed to cut back on curl I guess except Holmes kept running an out route. I believe the corner on Holmes came back and caught an easy interception and ran it in for a pick six.

It got better with a touchdown by Big Ben on a 1 yard run. Securing a lead was looking good but still a bit shaky. On a third and long Ben put a beautiful pass right into the hands of Limas Sweed for a touchdown! But oh wait, this second year rookie dropped the pass! No one was on him. He had it and should have continued running except he just fell to the ground where he should have still had it but then just bobbled it out. Wow, fail. Don’t look to get any more passes you jackass.

The biggest player out of the game had to be Mike Wallace. This rookie had 7 catches for over 100 yards. Ben should have gone to him some more. Look for him to be a potent weapon. Logan as the run back specialist is still looking good too.

Our biggest problem besides slippery fingers and a mediocre run game? Our defense. Did I just say that? I certainly did! With star strong safety Troy Polamalu out you can see the weakness of the specialized D. Tyrone Carter is doing okay but this defense needs the special skills of TP. I have no idea why Dick LeBeau lost this game for the Steelers. He completely stopped blitzing and switched to the fucking stupid prevent shit that only prevents a team from winning. Once again that rule proves effective and the Steelers lost. Okay, it worked on quite a few plays to leave them with TWO 4th and longs. Game ending plays, right? SO BLITZ the shit out of them. It works especially with the STEELERS DEFENSE! Why oh why do you put 4 in the box and not try to stack it? Our secondary was playing great enough to prevent a pass, even if they throw underneath you can tackle them short of the first down for the win! And then Farrior had the big missed tackle to allow them the final first down and the eventual win. I was so fucking pissed.

I can’t wait until Troy Polamalu is back. The Bungles suck and they should have lost. Now they’ll wave this stupid win over the Steelers like it was something. At least it looks like our offense is showing up and improving which is always good.

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More Than A Feelin’

Monday, September 28th, 2009

I sat up on the roof tonight (or I guess last night technically since it’s past midnight now.) I had a Bolivar 754 cigar in hand and a sunset to watch. The Steelers just lost to the Bungles in a horrible 4th quarter that I don’t even want to think about.

Anyways the sky was awash in orange and red, the meeting point where they melded together was a deep magenta. It reminded me of a painting. It was pretty but not breathtaking. At that moment I was just pacing the roof thinking what the sunset would look like in… a certain geographical location. I’ll know by the end of next month but that’s so long away. I want to watch the sunset with her as it dips below the water. I want to see the color of the sky, feel the heat of the sun, watch the image mirror off the water, and experience it all with Ms. Sexy X in my arms. To dream a reality but not set foot in either is to be lost in a hell. Fear not, there is an escape from this madness. I can’t wait.

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Same Old Story

Sunday, September 27th, 2009

I ate breakfast this morning wary of how I feel. My stomach feels fine so maybe it was just the pizza that threw my stomach off yesterday. It might have something to do with working out, drinking all that water, and then being a pig faced piggy when it came to the pizza.

I feel fine this morning. There’s a tinge of sadness there. It’s been 9 days now since I last heard from her. I’m hoping she’ll call today. I tried last night but I’m not sure if it rang because it did a weird disconnect thing, I think that’s on her end but it could be my phone. I’m not worried about it. I dream of her a lot in so many ways. I can’t wait.

I will be sending this letter off Tuesday, I haven’t finished it yet just in case she calls. She should get it by the first of October and I’m sure she’ll love it. I’m also bidding on two cute shirts for her, I know she says she doesn’t want gifts. I’m debating on how to give them to her. I’d like to give them to her in person. I may ship one and take the other with me. She wants this shirt and she’d like it, I know she would. I like both these shirts. We’ll see. I’m looking forward to that.

I haven’t been shopping in a while. I’ve been saving up money and I just haven’t felt up to it. I guess it’s a sort of depression thing but it’s whatever. I may do it this week.

Today is NFL football day. I think I’ll just stay at home and watch the games. I know it’s not the most exciting thing ever but I like watching football. That sucks because I know she would watch with me (I don’t think she’s the biggest fan ever but she definitely likes it. That’s how I am though, so we’re perfect for each other. Just another thing. ;-)) I have to scour the internet for a link to her team since it’s not on the locals. It’d be nice to have DirectTV but that’s way too expensive for me. I’d go to a bar but I don’t feel like it. The Steelers do take on the Bengals and I’m hoping they cream them like normal. I’m worried about Palmer going after Carter, he’s no Polamalu.

Today I’m really feeling very neutral. We’ll see how it goes. The only two times I’ve felt really sad is the past two nights I think when I went to bed. I guess right when I wake up too for the same reason. It’s all so very hard.

On a lazy, fatass note I do plan on working out but there’s a strong possiblity I won’t because of the aforementioned adjectives I’ve picked for myself. ;-) It may be because I’m awwwesome!

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Blah Day

Saturday, September 26th, 2009

I went to bed early last night, right at around 1AM. I was tired I guess and I have nothing to do. I’m bored and lonely. This morning I woke up to it still raining which should have been my cue to keep sleeping. I did sneak maybe another 45 minutes in but it wasn’t really sleep and I did dream a little. I plan on sleeping in tomorrow too but my body never lets me. Meh, oh well.

I had an ailing stomach and went to the bathroom several times this morning. I was hoping it was just from last night’s pizza. Unfortunately, it hit me several times today. I haven’t felt too bad really besides going to the bathroom. I’m hoping I’m not sick, I don’t feel it. I haven’t eaten any supper yet, I’m a bit afraid too.

Work was busy so it kept me occupied most of the time today. Florida took on UK today and I knew it was going to be a beatdown. I watched the first quarter before I tuned out. 31-0 and Hartline had 2-6 throwing with 1 whole yard. Wow that sucks. I believe the final score was 41-7 not that it mattered. Tebow went to the hospital after taking a hard hit though I figure he’s just shook up. I know there’s going to be a lot of drinking in Bluegrass nation tonight.

I had one strange black woman looking down at a phone or something and she snapped her head looking at me all exorcism style and says “Jesus is lord” and she snaps her head back to where she was looking. I said “ooooh kay” casually and she says “sorry I just wanted you to know.” I just gave her an odd stare and continued on.

I have been dreaming all day when I can. My dreams are simple but enormous. I’m nervous about going out there, this may be my chance. I haven’t heard from Ms. Sexy X in… is it 8 days now? I think that’s right. I’m worried but I know she’s fine, it’s just tough. I don’t know, I’m having a hard time saying what I want to say on here.

I have simple dreams and I’m so close. Please, please work out. Arrrgh!

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SO FUCKING PISSED!

Friday, September 25th, 2009

Where do I fucking start?

Okay… so today was okay. My morning went by fine. I’ve been thinking about my Ms. Sexy X, it’s been a week now. It sucks but what can I do? I’m keeping a good attitude. I’m worried as usual but that’s nothing new. I haven’t felt depressed… well I had a moment but it was only a moment. Overall, I’ve been feeling good.

I was teasing a manager of mine and she decided to get smart with me so I got smart back with her. She comes back at me later to do the same thing and I was a bit pissed but I think she was just messing with me. The way she did it was really smart and you know what I gave her? The same thing with a heavy dose of sarcasm. I just didn’t care.

After work I got on my pull up bar. I did 4 sets of various 7 reps. I used to be able to do 10-11 but when I stopped 3 months ago… that went downhill so I’m working my way back up. I maxed at 8. Those straps are beastly. I cannot hold my legs out straight but I can hold them out somewhat. I can only hold for maybe 30 seconds, to be honest I just go until I drop. But I follow up each pull up set with a set of 10 reps of bringing the knees up to the chest and back down while using my arms to make sure I’m holding myself up straight. That shit works the abs, I can feel it. Whether that does anything for me I don’t know but we’ll see.

What pissed me off is I got off work to log on here and immediately got a virus. God damned iframe injection again. Is there anyway I can block this shit? I don’t use iframes and I don’t want it. I installed several antivirus plugins for this blog and they didn’t do anything. I’ve contacted my hosts and they’re looking into it. I’ve also changed the file permissions. I fucking HATE hackers.

I do apologize if there is a rare reader that even sees this blog (not just for the content! ;-)) I’m not adding anything to this site like that… I HATE popups. This is invisible so you can’t see the popup but it does open up an unsecure connection to a malicious website. Apparently this type of attack is happening a lot lately so I’m not alone in that regards. It still sucks. I have to go in and edit the files or overwrite them with the backups which pisses me off. I try to do that every morning in order to catch it (the attacks come at 3AM it seems like.) Unfortunately, I had to work so the soonest I could look was this evening. I hope no one but me got infected (which I immediately fixed thanks to a recent system restore.)

I’m not sure how but the attacker will somehow inject one line of code that opens an iframe on the user’s computer which opens a website that you can’t see. Hence “iframe injection” is what it is called. They insert it into the index.php or index.html files. It’s easy to detect but you’d think there’d be an easy way to block it too.

Then I go to eat at a restaurant tonight and the waiter was horrible. At first it took a while but it was busy in there so we chalked it up to that. The place started clearing out shortly after we sat down and they were trying to order beer (I stuck with ice water, thankfully.) We put our order in pretty quick so it came out in a timely manner. They had empty beer glasses and ordered more by the time the pizza came out they still didn’t have a refill. As we ate he never checked up on us. Finally they ordered more beer by the time I asked for a to go box. It took quite a few minutes to get that… whatever. The next time he came around they ordered more beer and I asked for my check. It took a while to get the check, again no problem. I had my card ready when he handed it to me but he gave it to me and turned around and was flirting with two ugly ass women. WHAT THE FUCK? Then he wandered off. It took 30 minutes before he ran my card and when he did he managed to add a beer to my ticket. I waited 15 minutes for him to come back and when he didn’t, I got a manager and complained. He fixed the ticket but I wasn’t sure if he’d do anything. The store manager is real good about this stuff so I’ll email her. I didn’t leave a tip nor will I sit in his section again. That reminds me of this one waitress I think I got fired… well the final straw I’d guess. That’s for another time.

Now I’m here in a pissy mood and alone in bed. I hate that shit. I just want to wrap my arms around my woman and just lay there with her next to me… gawd. Now I’m in a pissy AND sad mood. Ha, I’m a dork.

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Dreams Mean Nothin’

Thursday, September 24th, 2009

I guess Jung would roll over in his grave but what does he know? He was a nut. I suppose we are all just one degree away from being crazy.

I dreamed that I got in a huge fight with my parents over something stupid, I’m not even sure what. I ended up walking out and just leaving for good. I know that’s what I’ve been thinking in my head so the fact it manifests into a dream isn’t a surprise. I haven’t done that but I’m considering just leaving this state so they can’t bother me. I just need one more month, so I need to play it cool until then.

It’s been six days since I last talked to Ms. Sexy X. I’ve received no communication after that night when she sent some texts. She may have sent more but they’re not coming through or she may have not sent any. I don’t know. I’m feeling fine to some extent, she makes me happy. There’s a little sadness but that’s to be expected. I keep hoping to hear anything from her. I’ll send my second letter in 5 days. I have yet to finish it in case we talk before that time, sometimes I like to add things from our talks as a surprise. ;-)

Nothing was on last night. I take that back, the Ultimate Fighter was on. Wes Shivers took on James McSweeney. I was going for Wes but neither one really interested me. The fight took the full 10 minutes… why? Because they were sleeping half the fight!

Wes starts off strong with a takedown shortly into it. After some attempts at side control James breaks free. From there James is swinging wildly and trying stupid crazy kung fu shit that will get his ass fucking beat down in the actual UFC. He was actually running away from Wes and just didn’t have the reach when he did move in. It was a horrible mismatch. Luckily for him, Wes tired out after 3 minutes into the round. It was ridiculous. So McSweeney got some good solid leg kicks in and a few jabs. Into the second round it was the same stuff, leg kicks and jabs. The big guy swung but was too slow and did manage another take down but didn’t do shit. Rampage yelled to drop elbows but he just couldn’t do anything. For most the second round he dropped his guard and actually leaned on the octagon side and rested! Rashad is screaming for James to move in but he was tired as well and didn’t take advantage of that. Finally Wes did another takedown but James quickly got on top and attempted a guillotine until time expired. They were calling for a 3rd round but they were both wiped and Wes was sure to get knocked out. Judges scored it a win to James with a split decision. I think I even fell asleep a few times during this “fight.” At the end we got to see Rashad pick the next fight… Roy Nelson vs Kimbo Slice. Here goes! I hope Slice gets knocked the fuck out. I really don’t know, they say Roy is good but he’s a fat ass…

Man vs Wild was on as well, it was a behind the scenes deal. I can’t help but watch those, he’s crazy. I like that show a lot. He ate some funky cave spider thing which was so fucking disgusting I almost couldn’t watch.

That was it for my night. I know it’s not real exciting but what can I say? Sigh. I’m lonely. :-(

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In Limbo

Wednesday, September 23rd, 2009

I am stuck in a mire of incompleteness. I’m not advancing nor am I doing anything to advance. I don’t even need to ask why. I know why. I’m waiting. I’m in a stasis filled with anticipation. I’m considering options of this and that, whatever they may be but I don’t act on anything. No, not yet. The end of October can’t come quick enough. I don’t even know what’s going to happen then nor do I know what’s going to happen after that. Sure the uncertainty makes me super nervous, I’m the king of nervousness at times. But this long wait and now the upcoming anticipation negates most of that feeling. I’ll be nervous, I am thinking about it now. But it will finally be a relief to do what I’ve wanted to do for so long now. I just need to be with her.

I’m restless. I need to be out of this state. It’s been great but I need to be doing my own thing. That was to happen 4 months ago but things went sideways. No more. It’s here and now and when I say “now” I guess I mean soon. Fuck it.

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Sons of Anarchy S02E03: Fix

Wednesday, September 23rd, 2009

The episode started off like expected, Gemma is freaking out and not having sex due to the rape but she still won’t tell anyone. The tension rises between Clay and her into a fight in the parking lot of the porn studio. It doesn’t mend over when they try to talk about it later, she just brushes him off.

Clay makes a unilateral decision with Bobby which ticks Jax off and a bit of tension arises and it comes out the guys are noticing. Jax is playing a porno bunny along but Tara gets jealous. She gets her vengence at the end by not fighting that girl but instead spreading her legs for Jax for the girl to walk in on and see. Ouch! I say go Tara but that is certainly unorthodox. To me, Jax should be the one standing up for Tara in the first place. He’s hurting her feelings and he knows it.

The big thing is Opie noticing meth dealers on the street so the club figures out the Aryans are bringing drugs in under Darby and the Nords. The club feeds Deputy Chief Hale some credible intel on the location of the meth house. He investigates and talks with the Aryan leader again and tells Jax the intel didn’t check out which let the club know he’s in cahoots with the other guy. Clay let Unser in on the deal so that he knows Hale is dirty as well, especially when they investigate the explosion.

Bobby finds that Luanne is skimming the books and cheated the club out of some major cash. It’s not clear whether he’ll tell the club yet or not but I’m betting on the former despite what sexual favors she’s trading with him.

Opie is showing his wrecklessness again, almost going after two armed skinheads before being pulled back and then again by setting off the bombs to blow the meth house without using a remote detonator and almost gets blown up. He’s on full tilt just like Gemma. This episode was rather a bit slow. I find myself impatient and wishing they’d go faster… I just hate waiting.

I don’t expect the Jax/Clay thing to rear it’s head but I do expect an outburst by Gemma and a resolution to that (at least the beginning of one.) I also anticipate Tara and that one chick having a fight or maybe a fight with Jax. Bobby will also tell Clay and then Otto will find out about Bobby. Ah the joys of revenge.