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True Blood S02E11: Frenzy

Monday, August 31st, 2009

I’m going to take a different approach here. I don’t think my “review” was very good last time. It was more of a summation with comments sprinkled in. I’ll admit it wasn’t written for a stranger as there were spoilers and junk in it. Whatever. So I’m sticking with a similar format, it’s just more pronounced now.

Evan Rachel Wood plays a wimsical, happy go lucky queen. I know this is only the first episode with her but it seems to be a character mismatch. I envisioned a more refined queen and she was supposed to be really young. Honestly, I’m glad they made her older (though ERW still looks young) but it is a difference.
Erik flew in this episode. They didn’t make it look fake or anything but they didn’t focus on it either. I’m glad they added that element in as it comes in handy in the books. He also had a funny line asking if Sookie has asked about him. Unfortunately, we didn’t see much of him.
Sookie inquires about any side effects of drinking Erik’s blood after she learns from Lafayette that he had some. Lafayette mentions vivid fantasy/dreams which address a question I had earlier.
This episode was very slow and had a lot of filler dialogue that didn’t do anything for me. They made Jessica’s part small which sucks because I wanted to see what happened after she bit Hoyt’s mom. (Nothing happens!) Instead we get to see Maxine’s horribly crooked teeth and a pointless rant and rave between mother and son. Jason and Andy team up and have more boring dialogue though a few gems were thrown in like Jason complaining of Andy cockblocking him with a zombie woman. Now that’s funny, I don’t care who you are! Tara flips her mom into letting her go and she goes back under Mary Ann’s control along with Lafayette and that’s how the episode ends (with Sookie screaming, of course.)

That’s pretty much it, I really don’t have anything else. It was all about Mary Ann which is a boring storyline to begin with. I’m surely getting tired of this. Luckily, the season finale is coming up and hopefully they settle this and bring on the werewolves!

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Sleepy

Monday, August 31st, 2009

I haven’t gotten a whole lot of sleep in the past few days. I normally go to bed around 3AM especially with Ms. Sexy X calling late. I did some hour switching temporarily so I’ve been getting up at 6AM for work. That isn’t a helluva lot of sleep. She’ll hopefully call again tonight. I about fell asleep at work… okay I didn’t but it was realllly boring today and that didn’t help. I did almost go to sleep on break. I was going to take a nap on lunch but I had to use the bathroom and I figured I’d go home and do that and then sleep. That didn’t happen. Oh well. When I got home after work I showered and went to bed. I basically laid there for two hours. I ALMOST fell asleep several times but it never came. So when I got up I had one of those lack-of-sleep-headaches (that suck!) and I ate some leftover pizza and lasagna and had a Pepsi on the roof. Yeah, I watched the sunset again. It’s chilly here so being up on a breezy roof wasn’t the best thing ever.

I was feeling ill this morning so I didn’t eat breakfast… which always makes it worse. I ended up drinking some coffee and normally I never do. I LOVE the smell of coffee and it makes me feel better but I needed the caffeine and the taste wasn’t repulsive. Surprisingly, it actually helped a bit. I would have had more except I got a Sobe Orange Cream and it was gooooood. I like that better than Jones soda. It’s smoother, tastier, 20 ozs in a nice glass bottle, and only a dollar. Yum! The only downside is that it looks disgusting. Oh well.

What’s on my plate for the rest of the night? I’m watching the Vikings/Texans game. I’ll watch and review the True Blood tonight I think. Hopefully, Ms. Sexy X will call again tonight. With this headache and another early shift tomorrow and this damned lingering cough, I may cut it early tonight. I don’t know yet. I wish she’d call a bit earlier in the night but she calls right before she goes to sleep. Right now… I feel awake and fine so hopefully it will last the night.

I was feeling a little depressed today. Not bad at all, just a tinge. I don’t like being here anymore and I hate waiting. Luckily, I’ve been too tired to dwell on that so it wasn’t too bad today. I could have used that nap. I’d go to bed now but I just can’t manage to fall asleep before 2AM as shown by my wreck of a 2 hour nap after work.

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UFC 102: Couture vs Nogueira

Sunday, August 30th, 2009

I didn’t get to see it live on TV but a grainy webstream. It was worth it though. It wasn’t the best UFC ever but the main fight was great and the record knockout fight was fun to watch.

Thiago beat Keith which I predicted. I don’t have anything against either one but the last time I saw Thiago it looked like he was quick, quicker than Jardine. It could have gone either way but Thiago pretty much dominated this fight.

Todd Duffee connects on Tim Hague almost immediately… Hague had his guard down. He hit the sweet spot on the chin and Hague crumpled. Duffee takes advantage of that and pounces on him and lands the beat downs to seal the KO victory in a record 7 seconds! Talk about embarrassing!

The main event pitted two veterans against one another, the much older Randy taking on Antonio. Nog won all three rounds and ultimately the unanimous decision. There were several submission attempts and I can’t believe he didn’t get any but Couture is tough as nails and put up an excellent fight. There were several times I thought it could go either way. I would highly recommend watching this fight because it’s an exciting 15 minutes. When they went to the ground it looked as if one guy would be losing and the next minute he’d be on top. Nog had a great flip on one instance. My main complaint on Randy was why did he not get back on his feet with a minute and 35 seconds to go? There’s no way he’d win with submission or ground and pound… he needed a knockout. He had a MUCH better chance on his feet because it looked like it could go either way when they were fighting toe to toe.

I saw parts of the other fights but they weren’t that interesting to me. It’s been a while since I’ve seen a good main event fight.

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Blah

Sunday, August 30th, 2009

I swung back into depression. I’m feeling better now. I listened to New Radicals “You Get What You Give” a bunch of times in a row. Ms. Sexy X is feeling discouraged and I get worried.

Life isn’t fair. I wish I had answers, I wish I had wisdom, I wish I could take pain away. It just ain’t so.

My goal is to be with her and to support her 100%. I’m failing on both fronts and that’s what’s eating me up. I need a kick in the ass.

I started this post when I got up. I feel better now, I did indeed give myself a kick. I’ve been smiling all day afterwards. She’s my darling.

I ended mowing the lawn which was a bitch because it’s on a hill and I have to use this old push mower and I let it grow to about 6 inches. I talked with my friend for about an hour. We didn’t get anywhere, I told him my thoughts on my problems and he told me about his problems. I mean, just telling each other helped but advice is hard to come by.

I did laundry and then decided to go outside and lay out in the sun. It was cool but I felt perfect in the sun. It wasn’t hot. I’m not sure if it did me any good. I put on Crest White Strips prior to that and switched out a load of laundry. I fell asleep lying on a towel on the deck. It wasn’t the most comfortable ever but somehow I slept fine for about 45 minutes. Fuck it, I ain’t complaining. I showered and tried to sleep in my bed only to not sleep for 1.5 hours. It was rest though.

I ended my day on the rooftop. Wait, what? You heard me right. I was tired of only catching the start of the sunset because houses blocked my view. So I decided to climb up top and watch. It takes me about 15 seconds to get up there so it’s no big deal. I’m going to do it more often.

Um, I’m feeling fine for the most part. I wish… for her.

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Please Pry It Open

Saturday, August 29th, 2009

I went to bed at 2AM last night. I woke up at 5AM and sort of slept for another hour. Basically, I’m working off of 3 hours of sleep. I worked 7-4 today. I guess I was foolish to think I’d get more calls this weekend because I surely have not. I have this small depression building up and drinking some beers last night and getting little sleep did nothing for me save for making my morning depression worse. I managed to get through the day somehow. At lunch I called a friend and we talked for about 20 minutes. He helped a bunch. I hung up with him and it was hitting me so hard.

Ms. Sexy X had written a few cards to me and I read them every day without fail since I got them. (Part of my morning routine.) I had to wait until lunch to read them today so I read them after I ended the conversation with him. They put a smile back on my face. It’s so hard, I miss her so. I actually cried right before I read them. Why? I tried to call her but I got voicemail. Then I cried just a little.

Whenever she calls I still get nervous and happy at the same time. When I call, I get all nervous and excited but I also get anxiety because what if she doesn’t answer? That’s exactly what happens 90% of the time and it is killer. You might be thinking “why keep calling?” I’d rather take the chance at the 10% and feel that way than to avoid calling just so I feel good. Fuck that. I always feel so much better when she does answer. She makes me very happy.

If you’re thinking I’m not so happy right now, that’s not her doing. That’s mine and I know it. I’m a prisoner to my own mind. It sucks big time. I recognize it and there’s times I absolutely can’t do anything about it. Trust me, I’m stubborn and I’m trying. It’s a bitch.

“And if I close my mind in fear… please pry it open…”

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Fundamentals Of Depression

Friday, August 28th, 2009

Funky title, huh?

I was thinking. Well, actually I was listening to Shinedown’s “Sound of Madness” and one of the lines says “the darkest hour never comes in the night…” and the song is about depression and people that can’t handle it. I really like the song, they’re exactly right.

Anyways, that one line got me thinking. When I’m depressed, I believe the lowest point is in the morning. (This morning is a good example.) Why is that? Here’s my theory. In the morning you wake up to find your life the same and you’re already dissatisfied. In the afternoon you’re generally doing something so your mind is not focused on the bothersome thing. At night you’re looking forward to sleeping and getting temporary relief and perhaps the morning will bring something new. Of course when morning comes and nothing has changed… the ugly cycle rears its head and you shoot back to your lowest point.

Does that make sense? Maybe that’s just me, I believe that’s how my pattern is. This is all assuming something is depressing you to begin with.

Shinedown video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dtJ0dHK5WHQ

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Loungin’

Friday, August 28th, 2009

I didn’t get my call last night. I don’t know if I’ll get one today either. Who knows? I’m feeling a little down today. I know why and it’s a stupid reason. Well, it’s not stupid but I’m telling myself it is so I get over it. I have to give myself a kick in the ass.

I’m just laying in bed all morning until I go into work. Fuck everything else. I’m tired. Nope, I’m not sleepy or weak. I’m just tired… maybe mentally. I’m watching Sports Center which gets repetitive quick. Fuck me.

I did go golfing yesterday. I regret cutting our conversation short badly. I have to get over that. I had already planned out this golf outing, not expecting her to call. I could have probably talked another hour or two with her. Sigh. And for what did I miss it? A horrible golf game. I suck at this sport but for some reason I keep wasting my money to play it. I’m an idiot of epic proportions. I didn’t care there, I just tried to have fun. I was goofing off on the tee box, on the greens, on the golf carts. It was actually fun in that regards. I rode on the side of the cart for the last 3 holes. My brother tried getting me to fall or run me into branches and shit. It didn’t work. I almost tipped the cart twice rocking.

What’s going on in the sports world? Jay Cutler is still a huge douche. He’ll never be good and I’m glad he got stuck with the Bears. Fuck him. I hope he gets boo’d out of Mile High Stadium this weekend.

Michael Vick played yesterday. I couldn’t watch the game but from the replays it looks like he’s still as mediocre as ever. It looked like McNabb was upset which I don’t really care since McNabb is exactly the same. This ought to be funny since they both think they’re awesome or something. Hopefully, they’ll be bickering all season long.

The Dallas Cowgirls have put up an obnoxiously huge TV in their new stadium and for some ingenious reason they didn’t consult any punters. You know, the guys that kick the ball super high. That would have been smart, huh Jerry? You’re an idiot, your whole organization is a joke. They just started figuring it out with their first game? You mean to tell me no one practiced even prior to that? Dole out the money to raise it up, it’s apparent you don’t have a problem to spend a ton already on an overrated but crappy team. No one wants to see replays over and over because a punter is doing his job. You’re going to delay games and make this shit reviewable. Good game.

Byron Leftwich had left the Steelers and apparently went to the Tampa Bay Buccaneers in the off season. I missed that one. It’s good for him and he looks like he’s doing well. He had some issues where he completely missed wide open guys but he’ll get it. I was impressed when he played backup after Batch and Roethlisberger got hurt last season. I like Dixon as well, either one could do a good job. I’m sure Leftwich will be the starter come season start.

Brandon Marshall got suspended from the team because he’s a grade ‘A’ asshole. He was aquitted of charges of battery on his girlfriend. That doesn’t mean he is innocent. He created this trouble for himself now he’s reaping what he sowed. Instead of coming back this season to show us a better side by keeping a good attitude, playing well, and keeping out of trouble he decides to skip the high road and just act like a little bitch which led to his suspension.

My weekend preview is Patriots play the Redskins tonight at 8PM EST on CBS. Sunday has the Bears going to Denver which ought to be interesting given the quarterbacks (on NBC, same time.) The game will most likely suck though. Houston will take on the Vikings Monday on ESPN once again at 8PM EST. Then you have UFC on Saturday night, Randy Couture is fighting Antonio Noguiera. Thiago Silva is taking on Keith Jardine as well. I’m going to go with Nog and Thiago as the winners.

The 11th episode of True Blood is Sunday night at 9PM EST. Just two left for the year. Damn.

And one quick rant. I HATE ESPN’s website where the stupid video players automatically start. I’m on wireless and it just bogs me down. I can push play if I want to see that crap and trust me when I say I don’t.

Can my day get any awesomer? I doubt it. Fuck all.

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Give Me A Break

Thursday, August 27th, 2009

Just for one minute. ;-)

This is just a quick update. I did the things I said I would today. I also got to talk with Ms. Sexy X for an hour and forty five minutes. I was the one to cut that conversation short due to prior commitments. That sucked and I thought about ditching but she told me to go. Fuuuuuck. She said she’d call back tonight so I’m waiting on that.

She’s taking a three day break starting tomorrow. I’m excited for her. I wish I could say more. I will, I will… just not yet.

I’m thinking I’ll get to talk with her a lot this weekend but that remains to be seen. :-) :-) :-)

I hope she has a great night. I hope I do and anyone that might stumble upon this. (Anyone? Bueller?)

EDIT: Ah, she just now left. I know she won’t call tonight. Darn. :-(

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My Hero

Thursday, August 27th, 2009

Once again, I slept until 8:40 and I sort of “rested” until 9:30… I wouldn’t call that last hour sleep.

I woke up to find some news about Kentucky’s old basketball coach – Billy Gillispie. We heard about his DUI problems in Texas. For some reason he’s still in KY and he got busted for DUI on US 127 this morning. He claims he was just getting back from golfing at… 2:45AM!! Alright, Billy! Nothing says “sober” like a horrible alibi! That’s why you’re my hero. In all honesty, I thought he got done dirty and should have had another year. There were rumors about his treatment of players, yada, yada. Calipari better work out with this awesome recruiting class because UK will be a laughing stock if not. Then again, his wins can’t be vacated either or the same results will occur.

Michael Vick plays tonight at 1900EST against the Jaguars. I’m interested in watching but I may be golfing then. (No, that isn’t code for drinking and driving, hahaha!)

Okay, we get the idea that some players may be pissed off at Favre coming in like he did. Whatever, that’s expected. But I SWEAR TO GOD if I hear them say “schism” one more fucking time on ESPN I will blow them all up! OY VEY! Some idiot used the term “schism” when he “broke” the story and they just won’t drop it. This isn’t even a story to begin with. Assholes.

I got some good sleep. My arm is hurting which makes me wonder if I’ll golf today. It’s just sore and stiff. Typing doesn’t help but whatever. Yesterday, I opted to not go fishing because of it. I was hoping Ms. Sexy X would call again yesterday but she didn’t. :-( I was going to use that as an excuse not to go fishing but I wouldn’t. Unfortunately, after soaking my arm several times in a hot wax bath, the soreness didn’t dissipate enough to my satisfaction. I’m sure it was brought on by fishing the other night. A thousand casts in a few hours can do that to you especially if your arm was fucked up in a wreck. It’s unfortunate and I’m beginning to wish I never got that motorcycle. I love them and it wasn’t my fault but I just don’t think it was worth it. Sad, huh?

Today I’m going to do a little shopping, get some things if I can. I’ll do that this afternoon. First I still have to do my morning routine, then I’ll start cooking something so that when I get done shopping it’ll be ready for me to eat. Those two things should book up my afternoon.

I’m feeling kind of blah this morning. Hopefully that feeling will go away. 11,143!

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Oh, My, My. Oh, Hell Yes!

Wednesday, August 26th, 2009

I woke up late today (9:30!!) It’s weird. I’m not even sure what I’ve done this morning. I do know that I took a shower and I got a call right before I got out. It was a blocked number. They went to voicemail but hung up. Confused, I called Ms. Sexy X thinking maybe she called. I left a voicemail. I texted her as well. I called again 10 minutes later only to be sent straight to voicemail. I was dismayed. For some reason I gave it one more shot 4 minutes later and it rang. Well, I guess she was just in a bad spot. But I still didn’t expect her to answer. To my surprise she did. We got to talk for 20 minutes before she had to go. I’m happy! :-) Turns out she didn’t call so I have no idea who did. That makes me wonder a little bit. She said she’d call back after an hour or so, if she could. It’s been 1.5 hours. Either her thing is going longer than anticipated or something came up. She may still call yet. :-) If not, it’s alright.

I’ve been watching the NCIS marathon on USA. I love that show. It reminds me somewhat of JAG, I was a huge fan of that as well.

I’m getting impatient. For what? For everything. I just have to wait. It’s all whatever. I’m going to go eat a roast beef sandwich and have a Pepsi now. Yum!

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Gun Safety

Tuesday, August 25th, 2009

I awoke several times this morning. Why? No reason, I just wake up. I don’t know. I’ve been lounging this morning, just thinking. There’s quite a few things I’ve been thinking about, the most important you can guess. I still have a lingering cough that’s buggering me. My nose is still running just a tiny bit. I’m not depressed. I just am. I want to be happier. I am smiling and I’m most certainly happy when I think of Ms. Sexy X… so I am happy throughout most of my day. I want to live my dream and be perpetually happy, I will be and it’s getting close. I just don’t know when. I’m not complaining, it is what it is. I’m just impatient. Ha.

I do have Sports Center running in the background. On it was none other than Plaxico Burress. It’s reported he used a Glock handgun though I can’t find any confirmations on that. He says he had on black jeans and was carrying it “mexican” a la sans a holster in the front of his pants. As he climbed the stairs the gun slid down his pants and he reached down to stop it and says he must have hit the trigger through his pants and shot his leg. That’s very likely.

So let me review some basic gun safety. Please, ALWAYS use a holster. Some people out there won’t and if you’re comfortable with that… well have at it. KNOW your gun, how it works. Glocks have some safeties but they rely on the user as all safeties do. In this case, all three safeties are deactivated by the trigger pull. NEVER reach down to grab a falling gun no matter what kind. Almost all modern handguns have some sort of good drop safety incorporated in them which makes the chance of an accidental discharge nil when it falls. However, your chances SKYROCKET when you reach down as your finger can get into the only spot (trigger guard) that will cause the gun to fire. Don’t take that chance, take the scratch.

Even if you don’t use a holster or don’t know how it works, trying to catch a falling gun is a newbie mistake and should NOT be practiced. Let it fall, I don’t care if it’s a $50,000 gun, can you buy yourself a new life with that money? I didn’t think so. This has literally cost Burress MILLIONS. That’s one expensive flesh wound. He could have bought a warehouse full of guns for that money. Take the hurt pride and a scratch.

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Good Morning!

Monday, August 24th, 2009

Well, it’s as good as it gets for now. I’m certain that I will have better mornings in the future when I wake up next to my Ms. Sexy X. She texted me early this morning. The same simple thing but boy do I love it! It means a lot to me. In addition to the calls I got yesterday, I’m in a good mood. To top it off it is really nice outside again.

The only downside is that I have to be getting to work in a little while. Bullocks.

I have my white strips on for the first time in 2 weeks (due to the cold.) I hate how one strip will go on perfect and the other one slides around. It only matters which one goes on second that does that. I’ve tried putting them on fast in succession. I’ve also washed my hands and carefully dried inbetween. No matter what it happens. I don’t know a trick around that. I still have a light cough and a slight runny nose. I’m almost done with it though.

One more day down, I’m getting closer. I can’t wait.