I suppose it’d be proper of me to try to introduce her. I say “try” because you have to know her to get it and there are no words I can say that will do my baby justice. No, I’m not about to bust out details or pictures. You’ve certainly gotten the wrong impression of me if you think I’m about to do that. ;-)
What can I say about her? Everything. To sum her up in one word, it’d definitely be “perfection.” She thinks she has flaws and perhaps she does but I embrace them if anything so that makes her perfect for ME.
She has a beautiful mind. She’s very caring, very sweet, and oh-so-smart. Don’t let her say otherwise because she certainly is. She’s book smart as well though she might try to play that off. Hey, I’ve never found science or math all that interesting or useful, honey. I love the way she thinks, it mirrors my thinking style. She is very, very perceptive which can feel like she’s probing you but I don’t care. I’m honest with her and I don’t lie to her. Why? There’s no point, it’s harder to remember lies and I trust her with everything so I don’t feel a need to lie to her. Now we’re both very, very private which makes getting the whole truth out harder. I wouldn’t consider that a lie at all, it just takes us more time to get to whatever. She is a tough little nut to crack at times for various reasons. I don’t try to analyze nor do I give up, I continue to seek answers from her even when the topic is something mundane. Why? I’m just trying to reach her. I already have, don’t get me wrong. But there are times where she likes to shut down as a defense mechanism. Oh, I do that too. I don’t do that with her, I don’t want to. She apologizes for it but I don’t need it. I just need her and the only apology I need is just for her to let me in… and she does. To be in her heart is the most sacred place I could be and I’ll continue to work to stay in, I won’t scare nor run off. I love her way too much to do that.
She’s a great person. She’s had some things go wrong in her life. It hurts hearing about them, it tears me up (read both ways.) She’s worked through them and come out as the person I know and love today. I wish I could take the pain away, I do. In some ways I have, I think. I wish I could be there now.
She’s a beautiful woman physically speaking. She is absolutely stunning and takes my breath away. She’ll say this or that is wrong but I don’t see it. Her face can make angels sing. Her smile is radiant and lights up every picture. She has beautiful eyes that I can get lost in forever. Her lips are to die for. I almost wish I could post a picture to share with the world but I can’t for a multitude of reasons. First, I don’t want to share her. Second, not only would I not like it, I know she wouldn’t like it. Third, fuck I forgot my third reason.
I get weak and nervous talking with her every time but I have a need to talk with her. As Dutch would say “she completes me.” :-) I look forward to every text, email, and phone call. I’m always afraid we have nothing to talk about (we’ve talked so much) but we always come up with something, much to my relief and we end up not finishing after hours of talking. It’s so weird but she’s the only one that can do that with me. I really do hate talking on the phone… seriously. I never talk that long either. But I always look at my phone waiting for a call, wishing and hoping. It’s funny because when we first started talking I was too nervous to call but once in a while and she was waiting on my calls. God damnit why does life have to be so fucking unfair. We should have been together months ago. I still see no reason to be apart. I know the “situation” and I understand to some extent but… is that any reason to have us suffer needlessly? I hope she says the word soon.
She has the greatest sense of humor. Sometimes it’s more juvenile and sometimes it’s more serious. Whatever it is, I always find myself chuckling and smiling. That’s one thing I can count on, when talking to her I am always smiling. Throughout my day I’ll be smiling whilst thinking of her. Sure I have fits of depression and whatnot but I do smile. And whenever I talk with her on the phone I can literally hear her smile on the other end. That lifts me up so much. I love her laugh, I love her voice. I love how she teases me (sometimes relentlessly) because it’s fun and what makes her happy, makes me really happy. When she’s sad, I’m sad.
Our tastes in movies and music are similar. I like that. The things we differ on I can handle and visa versa. We look for the overlaps all the time, who doesn’t? I wish I knew as much about movies and music as she does… my gawd she is super intelligent especially when it comes to those.
She’s polite and sweet. She has great morals and views. I respect them and even look to them though she may not be fully aware of that. She also has some old fashioned views which I love because I do too. I’m what I call a “helpless romantic” so I love that sort of stuff. She says I have something that is pretty much missing in this world – chivalry. That is a HUGE compliment to me. I can’t say if I do or not but hearing her say that makes me feel so good. She makes me feel great about being myself, I adore that.
I could go on and on and dote forever on my darling. Just know that I am the luckiest man on earth and those that are around her daily are truly blessed and if they don’t realize that then I pity them for missing out. She is a jewel among thorns in this world. She has my heart and I have hers. I take the utmost care of her heart for there is absolutely nothing more valuable to me in this world. I love her dearly.
